Down the Rabbit Hole

I leave for Katimavik today! It seems weird saying that, the months of hype and now its finally here. Weird... Anyways my room is looking bare, I had to clean it and strip my bed and now it just looks sterile. The sun is shining (not into my window still a little early for that) casting everything into light, that must be a good sign. We haven't had sun, mostly rain this year, so this must be great. I am nervous and scared yet extremely excitied! I have never seen any other province (other than B.C.) I have never been in a plane (that is where all of my nerves are coming from) Katimavik is going to give me a lot of firsts!

Well...I leave at around 12ish probably. My dad took my bags with him this morning to work. I am going to take the bus, and then the skytrain and hang around metrotown (a mall) with my mother and twin sister until my father finishes work. Then we will meet up with him and my bags. He will then proceed to take us to the airport (like a chauffeur) and then I will meet Cole (a groupmate who lives in Vancouver) and hopefully a girl named Erin (I believe she is in the medicine hat group, but she is going to travel with me and Cole) We get on a flight to calgary that takes off at 615, then we get to go to our katimavik group sitting in the airport. Then we all get into a bus, drop other groups off in our cluster and go to lethbridge (at 4 a.m.!!!)

CRAZY EXCITIED!!!

Less than two weeks

I leave in less than two weeks...Less than two weeks until I don't see my family for six months, until I don't see my four best friends, and until I don't see my twin sister for six months. Its a scary thought. I am leaving and everything is staying the same except me. My friends will go to White pine without me have sleepover and go camping everything the same minus me. I am terrified....

...yet extremely excitied. Less than two weeks until ....I meet my group for the first time, I see my house for the first time...until I GET A LIFE:) I am so excitied, I want to jump up and down screaming it is amazing. I am ready to leave, my stuff is sitting half packed on my bedroom floor. My bedroom looks like chaos. Packing is seriously the hardest part, think about it. When you leave its hard to pack what you want and how to properly pack, do you really need that...and so on, but when you leave? Packing knowning that your going home? That is heartbreaking (I have read a lot of blogs that make me want to cry, its so sad the last day)

I finally finished school! Yes, I am officially a graduate:) Thats weird to say... I still feel weird seeing my school and realizing that I no longer have to go there. I AM DONE GRAD 2011 YES!!!

Katimavik, I am ready to leave. I have my flight information too! I leave at 6:15 pm from the Vancouver airport, and then get to my lethbridge house at 4 am...ouch. We all arrive and then have to drop off all the other groups in our cluster (Calgary to Canmore to Lethbridge to Medicine Hat) at least they rented a motorcoach for us:) Also I travel with a guy who is in my group...so hopefully that isn't awkward. All my relatives are planning on coming to the airport to say goodbye...Great (note the increased level of sarcasm there?) Seriously, I don't want to have to leave a bunch of sobbing relatives behind. Ugh...July 6th won't be fun...but july 7th...yeah when we all get on the motorcoach to our houses? THAT WILL BE FANTASTIC!


If I close my eyes will I stop this whirlwind
Will the days end because of my absence
My life is disappearing and I'm leaving
I am ready for the change of seasons
Change is coming on the wind
I can feel the breeze hit my skin
Awake for the first time
My eyes are open, craving new scenery
Leaving everything for adventure
I am at the edge of the earth
Looking back I see my life laid out behind me
Lets leave everything behind
Jump

Mothers

Happy Mothers Day to all the mothers out there:) Speaking of mothers (I am so happy you brought up the subject:) ) I love my mother, but mom strangers don't care if I am leaving. Just to let you know, I am the youngest of six kids and I am graduating this year. Alot of the time my mother will be talking to a clerk and saying stuff like "My baby is leaving soon", "I'm going to cry when you graduate and then I will loose my baby only a few days later", "You're the first of my children to leave and go so far away from me",thank you mother. Seriously I love her, but she makes me feel bad for going:( But it's my life and I shouldn't feel bad for leaving...should I? I want to live my life, its my choices that I have to live with not hers

In less heavy news:
I GOT MY CRIMINAL RECORD CHECK! (well...I got it into the police station friday and today they called me and said that it was in) I was so worried not because I have a criminal record or anything, but that I left it too late and it wouldn't be into the station for a few weeks because it always takes long. At the station when I was filling all the paperwork we had a really nice woman helping us, and she actually knew what Katimavik was! My jaw dropped usually I get blank stares, apparently her neighbours daughter did the program too, anyways I get sidetracked too easily, well since I am under 18 (Until May 19th, thats why I was putting off my criminal record check) they don't do Vulnerable sector checks, but the lady said that she would do it for me:) That was nice of her (or did she just want my money lol) So now, once I hand this in I AM DONE WITH PAPERWORK AND EVERYTHING WILL BE GREEN ON KATIMAROUTE! (yes, here is where you can applaud, because if you are an applicant or a past katimavictim then you will know just how much of a pain that novel of paperwork is, Step four and five)

I got my french call...I wasn't home....I called back at school, twice and no answer. Ugh I hate talking on the phone, I know my french isn't the best, so its just nervewracking waiting for it to be done. Seriously I just wanna get it over with. I am going to try calling on Tuesday and hopefully I can get it done. DAMN timezone changes!! *Shakes fist

I am sorta talking to two of my group mates:) YAY! One is an 18 year old female, and the other is a 21 year old female, yeah Females represent (seriously we can find no one else in our group its kinda of disappointing, but exciting because that means the first impression I get from them isn't facebook... BUT I WANT TO KNOW!! And seriously who wouldn't stalk the facebook page:P..or is that just me:) ) Oh yeah...I failed to mention my group number... its 41164 I believe:)

Also my best friend told her mother about me leaving?!?! Whoa but her mother told me to go for it and said it was a once in a lifetime opportunity (YUP:) ) Also two of my favourite art teachers also told me that Katimavik is a good program and they have heard nothing but positive things from it:)

58 days I AM SO FREAKING EXCITIED...oh and 30 days left of school, but Katimavik is more important:)