The aftermath

Written in the Toronto aiport waiting for my flight, ONE MORE POST TO COME! Just waiting for the dust to settle

We left the house at 3 a.m. just a group of us. We had to split the trip into 2 teams, airport kids automatically got first trip with three other people. So airport kids (or the western kids) Jill, Cole, and myself got to go first trip along with three train station kids Helena, Morgan, and Kristen. We each had our friends the closest ones in the whole Katimavik adventure with us, Cole with Kristen, Morgan with Jill, and Me with Helena. We were going to leave at 3 a.m. Then the second group consisting of just train station kids would leave once Annabel got back with the van. So we found out this information at around midnight, we tried napping but couldn’t. So we talked about everything we could think of, bullying, eating disorders, seizures, werewolf, Katimavik, our lives, family, everything. Finally the hour of reckoning had arrived. 3 A.M…The house goes to chaos. We decided at that moment we needed a group picture because we hadn’t had one since we had arrived in Quebec City. Then of course the whole first group had to say goodbye to the second group. I said goodbye to everyone just fine, but Jazz…oh my Jazz. I whispered into her ear “jazz..” I swear she could feel the desperation in my hug. The last time we would be together in a while. I hugged everyone one last time, everyone holding on a little tighter pulling a little closer. The last physical touch with my group for a long while. We loaded into the van, tears, happiness, and emotional teenagers. Willie and Connor follow us. Connor closes the van doors saying “Remember No glove, No love.” I ask him if that’s what he really wanted to leave us on. He smiled and shut the doors. As the van pulls out of the driveway one last time Willie and Connor run down the street chasing after the van. Seeing Willie broke my heart…I love that ginger more than words can ever describe. We drive to the airport getting lost as only our loveable Annabel can manage. In the midst of our tears we realize that this is it. The moment we have been waiting for since July, the moment we talked about, dreamed about, feared about, the hour was upon us.
The airport. Otherwise known as the place where Helena broke my heart. We pile out of the van all six of us. Fearful of the endings that we know are about to be delivered. Kristen and Cole –couple since week one, hold onto each other crying and kissing knowing it will be the last time for a long while. Morgan and Jill go off and have a final smoke together, Morgan the rock the strong one starts bawling. Helena and I are left alone…I start tearing up and then we hug. Then the floodgates break through. Helena starts bawling and all of the sudden I am out of tears. This shouldn’t be sad this should be happy right? We should be happy we did it we completed it, We survived. I grab Helena and we start dancing, when Annabel drops the second shoe. They had to go to the train station, time to say goodbye. I hug Helena one more time, go and Hug Kristen who is bawling, and then Morgan misty red eyed morgan. The three of them load into the van, Helena looking at me crying. I can feel my heart sinking as Cole, Jill and myself walk into the airport after waving the van off. Jill and Cole caught a flight at 525 was when they had to be on the plane. More goodbyes, I cry pulling Jill closer one more time. Then all three of us joke about being the western kids, how we will see each other again.
I am sitting now currently in the Toronto airport, underneath telephones. My heart is breaking, I am getting nervous to see my family, I feel like I’m going in the right direction but my heart is empty. I am alone, for the first time in six months. I am alone….

I am alone…

I am a katimavik alumni, I am an adult, I have grown more in the past six months than in high school, I have learned so much, and now I am missed from all parts of canada. I have a home and family in Montreal, Gatineau (QC), Toronto, Waterloo (ON), Kingston (ON), Embrun(ON), Qualicum Bay(BC), and Saskatoon. I am ready to take on the world.

ONWARDS TO MY FAMILY! I WILL BE BACK IN BC BY LUNCHTIME!:)