Thoughts

School is flying by, it seems like just yesturday I posted about going to school and part four on your katimaroute... I have to admit I have been ignoring my blog...why? well there is nothing Katima related. But I just have a few things to note, kind of to tie in the ends before January. January it seems so far away, like it will never come but it will, faster than I can blink this year will be over and hopefully I will get accepted. But now that the date is getting closer (psh two and a half months til the January date is nothing lol) I have some questions, doubts, and nerves.

What if?
What if I don't get accepted? Well I have a backup plan for that, its very simple its called GOING TO SCHOOL. I have all my papers filled out and just have to get the reference letters, and then I am good to go. I am going to wait until I find out whether or not I get into Katimavik to actually go and give them to the colleges and universities. Luckily the date you get picked for Katimavik is like two weeks before the applications for colleges and universities are due. So I will have my applications waiting just in case I dont get accepted. Rule number one: Always I repeat ALWAYS have a backup plan for serious things like this.

Friends....
Umm well they don't really know I have applied for this... I have told a few but they don't really believe me. How do you actually break it to your friends that you are leaving?? or that the summer they believe will be the last epic one before we all get serious and become adults isn't going to happen? Just hop on the bus, and say goodbye then? I dont think your friends will appreciate that. I keep trying to break it to them, saying that I might not be here but they don't seem to really care, i guess. Maybe once I get the acceptance letter (do you even get one?) and fail the french test (Parce que ma francais n'est pas bon, c'est tres horrible!!) will they believe me then? But I guess its just up to you how you tell your friends. Also don't be offended if they read your blog, its nice:) It shows they care, and miss you. Also apologize in advance if you say anything mean to them.

Nerves
I am always hitting on this one right here. I am so nervous! All these what ifs are killing me! What if I dont get accepted? What if my katimamates are total jerks? What if I don't fit into the group? What if my french is so awful that no french person will understand me? What if I get a job that sucks? What if I cant understand my work partners when they speak french? What if I leave and my friends forget me? What if I leave and its hard getting back to school? What if I leave and everything is different? What if... seriously this list could go on for a very very long while. But the most important one is IS THIS THE RIGHT DECISION FOR ME? I know this is what I want, but with all the doubts I have? it scares me, i never jump this blindly into anything.... But that is what Katimavik is about experiencing the unknown.

AND FOR YOUR PLEASURE, A sUNSET....JUST A SUNSET....WITH A KATIMAVICTIM